100 days since he passed away

MULTIPLE EMOTIONS. To experience loss is to experience a cosmic collision of emotions, raining down like shrapnel from the ether, hitting our vulnerability.

However, the loss is so rich with a rainbow firework. It enriches all aspects of reality, even if some facets are overwhelmed. The Lord gives and takes away, however, even in taking away, a great deal of experience is given.

One hundred days since you passed,

And these feelings of unawareness,

They prevail; they last.

You’ve had such an impact

About your mother and me,

In your sisters and family,

We look at the sky.

It’s not funny?

as time tarnishes bread,

With the immutable reality,

You can feel crazy.

vulnerable fingers,

Unused little toes,

You will always be beautiful

Heaven knows best.

Although there is healing:

The knowledge of the Lord,

There is still the strange feeling:

How they adore you!

Thanks god,

For what we had

No matter what we’ve lost

No matter how sad.

Life goes on now

Without you between us

It’s just your memory

Inside our fist.

will follow,

However, we will never forget

Just as you changed us,

Just like you did the freight for us.

Our wrong is our possession,

And we gladly hold on,

What we appreciate

That can never be sold.

It makes us who we are

and unites us

You are like glue

You’ve made love stick more.

We love your body

And I held you a lot

Even in those days,

You made us feel strong.

The days since then do not damp,

what we feel for you

For what you have given us,

We will ever close as true.

God gave you to us,

So we could see

How transformative

The loss can really be.

what you have taught us,

It’s obviously real

without you we are better

Because we can only feel.

So show us fresh,

This light held by God,

help us understand,

How to live by faith, not by sight.

take us inside

to your eternal abode,

When it’s our time

To see the golden path of God.

We imagine our welcome,

Entering the kingdom of heaven,

You there to meet us,

Holding our rudder.

We will always be,

all together again,

Up there with God

Light as a feather.

Oh what a thought

Oh how can we wait

anticipating what’s to come

Because destiny is never late.

So wait there, sweet child,

I know how you are

be there in peace,

Even as a star.

© 2015 SJ Wickham.